300 lbs always was the number that scared me. When I weighed myself I always felt fine as long as it was under 300. As I got closer I wanted to stop the weight from getting there but I couldn't. 300 came and now in my brain I was fat. Activity became harder. The desire to try to lose weight was gone.
In June our family took a dream trip to Disney and Universal studios. It was a blast, but I knew that somethings were not going to be possible because of my weight. For the first time in my life I had to get off two rides because I didn't fit. That was devastating. It was no longer will this ride scare me or will I have fun it became a conversation of will I even fit.
After the trip not much changed. I was still fat and I felt it. My clothes were feeling tight, I was tired a lot. I just couldn't do what I wanted and I didn't like myself anymore.
So I set a goal. I want to be back down to what I was in high school. 216 pounds is what I weighed when I graduated and I felt good about my body then. I want to get there by the end of the year. If I do in rewarding myself with a trip back to the rides I couldn't ride and I'm gonna ride them until I puke (ok maybe not that much but you get the picture).
I started this year by re-joining the only diet plan that has ever worked for me... Weight watchers. At the first weigh in I weighed 304. Which was less than I thought so first win! That means I need to lose 88 pounds in 52 weeks. That's 1.7 pounds a week. Totally possible. Each week I will post about the successes and the failures of this journey here. If no one reads it at least it will keep me motivated to keep going. I will post so pictures and stories as well. Here is to being 216 pounds in 2016.
